December 2011
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I try to chase after my heart before someone steps on it, but it always seems to run faster than my brain.
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“My oppa is better than your oppa.”
November 2011
3 posts
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The Other Side of the River
I spend a lot of time on the other side of the river, looking back.
Seeing you, standing there, in the rushing water.
Eyes wide, uncertain of what to do, where to go.
The river’s never the same twice, of course, but I’ve crossed it. Felt the icy current slide against my skin as I fought my way through.
Alone, but for words shouted from the wrong side, calling me back — not...
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Just Friends
Sometimes I think I’ll be okay — just friends.
But then you come back.
And
Sweep me off my feet.
Knock the breath out of me.
Steal my sanity.
And
Leave.
Struggling to stand.
Struggling to breath.
Struggling to think.
And
I’m alone again, thinking maybe I’ll be okay one day — just friends.
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Negative Correlation
Relationships are positive correlations. The stronger the friendship, the stronger the relationship.
But somehow, we’re different.
The stronger our friendship, the faster our old ties dissolve. I know it has to happen, but it still makes me sad.
Somehow, we’re different.
October 2011
9 posts
Ne me dit rien adieu
Tu me demande, « Comment te dire adieu? »
Je te reponde, «Ne me dit pas adieu. »
Je voudrais t’avoir pour tourjours.
Mais voudrais-tu m’avoir toujours?
Je sais que tu est le mieux homme qui j’ai dans ma vie maintenant.
Mais je sais aussi que je ne suis pas le mieux femme qui tu as dans sa vie - maintenant et puis.
C’est une...
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You're the only
He’s the one who makes my heart beat faster.
But you’re the one who made my heart.
He’s the one who makes my thoughts whirl.
But you’re the one who made me think.
He’s the one who makes me happy.
But you’re the one who gives me joy.
He’s the one who makes me brave.
But you’re the one who can truly protect me.
He’s the one who would do...
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Suspended
I think hope hurts more than rejection.
It’s quite easy to understand where you need to go after rejection, but being suspended in uncertainty because you dare to hope — that’s hard.
Most of me knows it’s impossible. If it wasn’t impossible, it would be improbable. If it wasn’t improbable, it would be unworkable. Our circumstances are simply too far away, yet...
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“It’s not really honesty that scares us. It’s what happens when the...”
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J
When I type a single letter, seven people come up. My eyes see their faces, but my heart sees their stories.
The first, I love, but let go of.
The second, I love, but cannot be with.
The third, a wonderful friend, whose struggles I take as mine.
The fourth, a brother, more devoted than I imagined.
The fifth, a sister not by blood but life, my helper and adviser.
The sixth, another sister...
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I would say I don’t really know how I feel about you.
But that’s a lie.
I would say I don’t really know what I want from you.
But that’s a lie.
I would say I don’t really know how you feel about me.
But I think that’s a lie too.
Everything has become so complicated to a point that although I do know, I feel like I don’t. Because it’s all an...
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A little bit of kindness can go a very long way.
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Please, hold on
You have too much pain in your life. I can’t believe I didn’t see it before. Then again, I never imagined we would become such good friends.
But every time I see you cry out, I ache for you. I want to help, but what can I do? I’ve never experienced what you’re experiencing. I can see that it’s killing you from the inside. I can see it hurts so much that you want to...
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Don’t you think there’s something about guys’ jackets? Somehow they make you feel warm, protected, loved, and taken care of. All at once. It’s been said many times, and I can’t help but agree.
Still, it’s less of the jacket than it is the guy, isn’t it?
September 2011
15 posts
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Mountains are climbed step by step
I was very happy yesterday. I’m usually very happy on Fridays. I think, though, that anyone else in my situation might not. I wake up at six in the morning and I don’t get home until twelve at night.
But I love it.
Because I wake up at six in the morning, get to see all my friends, participate in my favorite clubs after school, practice and lead worship with my praise team at church,...
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“To love means loving the unlovable. To forgive means pardoning the unpardonable....”
– G.K. Chesterton
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“Strength isn’t really about being strong. It’s knowing that...”
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“Life is my favorite story.”
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Today a particular someone asked me if I would to be jealous if my ex dated another girl.
The answer was obviously, ragingly yes.
How could I deny it?
It’s a struggle every day to remind myself of why I broke up with him.
I knew it had to be done, that we would never work until truly knew God and thus truly understood me, but the thought was little comfort. It still isn’t.
Part of...
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I know I’m never alone.
But sometimes, when it gets quiet, I feel alone.
Funny how a single person can have so much influence in your life - without even knowing it.
Letting go.
It’s hard.
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“Is prayer your steering wheel or your spare tire?”
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Strangers and Best Friends
I’ve seen it before. Two people who love each other so much. And then something goes wrong, and everything falls apart. Hearts broken, tears shed.
And then they become strangers.
Two people who used to know each other so well now cannot even start a conversation with each other.
I was so determined not to let that be. But it wasn’t really my choice. I was the one who had hurt him....
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“Your relationship is like soft clay. It has to go through fire before it can be...”
– The Fierce Wife
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“Maturity isn’t about not acting like a child. Rather, maturity is being...”
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“Once you tell a girl, “I love you,” from that moment on, she is your...”
– The Fierce Wife
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“That which is undeserved is most precious”
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“Fearless is having the courage to say goodbye to someone who only hurts you,...”
– Rice is Nice!
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“Even though it hurts so much, sometimes you want it to keep hurting because they...”
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“Sometimes words, music, pictures - nothing - can express what you’re...”
– Me
August 2011
9 posts
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It Was (Not) Okay
It was okay that you forgot, that you didn’t remember. It stung a little, of course, but it was okay.
It was okay that you said sorry, that you apologized. It made a world of a difference, of course, and it was okay.
It was okay that you messed up, that you didn’t do it right. It was a little frustrating, of course, but it was okay.
It was okay that you fixed it, that you repaired...
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I Will Never Tell You
That I want to be with you more than I want to be with him
That you amaze me and inspire me more than he amazes me and inspires me.
That you make me feel happy more than he makes me feel happy.
That I pay more attention to you than I pay attention to him.
That you make me feel whole more than he makes me feel whole.
That I think I love you more than I love him.
But I will never tell you,...
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Unconditional
I will love you with all of my strength.
Because when I said I loved you, I meant it.
Because when I say I love you, I mean it.
Because when I will say I love you, I will always mean it.
Because in the end, love is a choice, and I have chosen you, whether or not you have chosen me.
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“There will be times in life when you can do nothing but fall onto your knees and...”
– Me
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“I think that it’s not terrible of you to love him, even though he’s betrothed to...”
– Elyn
June 2011
1 post
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Paper Hearts →
I found this while searching for ideas to write about on my blog, and I thought it was really cute. Much better than writing on my arms, too. Perhaps you’ll write a note to your sweetheart?
May 2011
11 posts
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Why Students Fail
I was looking through my email, and I came across one of those old chain mail things that people used to send around. And then I remember why I kept it.
Why students fail
It’s not the fault of the student if he fails, because the year ONLY has 365 days.
Typical academic year for a student:
1. Sundays-52, Sundays in a year, you know Sundays are for rest.
Days left: 313
2. Summer...
Thrilling
If I look at the way technology has developed today, it thrills me discover what it will be like tommorow.
This was originally posted from my aim before I came on to edit it. It’s exciting to see the things that technology can do today, and consider how far we’ve come. I can’t wait to live in a society that seems like it belongs in a sci-fi novel. Of course, assuming that the...
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Decisive
I believe that after some more thinking I have come to a conclusion. I will conform to Tumblr’s style of posting, and blog about my life.
Let’s see if it’s really as interesting as I would like it to be.
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Tumblr-esque
So, let’s keep trying this out.
I’m still fiddling around with Tumblr, and trying to figure out if I really want to use it or not. I may end up either 1) Using Tumblr, 2) Using Tumblr and Wordpress, or 3) Just using wordpress.
I’m actually very excited to figure out what Tumblr has to offer me, but a problem has occurred. Just today, I tried to get onto Tumblr, and the the...
“Gossip needn’t be false to be evil - there’s a lot of truth that...”
– Frank A. Clark
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Changes
They’re the spice of life, don’t you think?
I’m trying tumblr out, and seeing if it’s worth my effort to transfer over here from wordpress. So, we shall see.
